Sunday, April 30, 2006

Peaceful Saturday type thoughts....

Had a quiet but good day. C was working then doing things for his mum, so pretty much gone all day. I started by a dog walk with Jill and our two doggies, then spent the rest of the day pottering on my own, thinking my own thoughts and doing my own thing. I am really appreciating time alone now, rather than manically filling it. I listened to Jonathan Ross, who I like better on radio than TV, strangely. He played an old track by Bread, which contained the line, 'You're the only one I care enough to hurt about...' which took me back to the thoughts of yesterday's blog.

If you feel, care or love, then yes, you will get hurt. The only way not to get hurt is not to feel, not to care, not to love. So I guess I would rather go on getting hurt....but having a little protective lining round one is preferable to total rawness..I think I am growing an emotional skin again....still caring, but able to protect myself more.

I cleaned and tidied the kitchen, had lunch, went shopping then came back and did a bit of tidying in the front garden so as to be out in the sun. Such a busy day that I had to come in and lie on the sofa and sleep! Followed by a cup of tea and a couple of chocolate biscuits...

I invited Jill and Ian round tonight, the first bit of real socialising I have done for ages. Didn't cook, though, we got a lvoely Chinese takeaway, while I introduced them to the wonderful sound of Kate Rusby.

Now I am tucked up in bed feeling very, very tired, but able to celebrate a nice day...and some cleaning and tidying achieved too! Now C has got to come and stay.....

3 comments:

Caroline said...

she will she will!

sally said...

No pressure....

Rainbow dreams said...

Have a good time :-)